The Tadayyon Life

School sucks. I admit it, it really sucks. I experienced a lot of “bullshit” through my high school career. I nearly went psycho. I was imprisoned in this horrid penitentiary for four years (high school). I felt my being, my presence, myself having become limited, captive, unable to express my true self or feelings. I was constricted and confined in multiple ways unimaginable. As this gradual concept of prison and confinement thickened and slowly impaired my thought process, I became crazy.

I have to admit, high school was not that bad, the first two years to be precise. My freshman and sophomore years were to be remembered and looked upon. During this period, I learned more about life, and became more aware of myself and others. I began to discover my inner self; my goals, strengths, weaknesses, and abilities. I felt an unloosing of questions and mysteries. I understood the concept of God, religion, love, and society. I was eccentric to go out and observe much more. I felt my brain becoming a sponge, ready to soak up any knowledge and information I can. I met new people, dumb, old, wise, and smart; I became part of large discussion, and experimented on multiple different levels.

I was invincible, I thought. I have unlocked the secret to become a super human; a living being blessed with great knowledge and sense. I became self-aware and started to gradually become self confident and build a great amount of self esteem. I had just discovered a new and inner love and relationship for myself and others. I had just discovered myself, and my inner potentials, and I was ecstatic to show the world what I can accomplish.

I adapted to new strategies and ideas instantly. I learned that impossible is nothing, you’re able to achieve anything you want in your life. With the right mentality, motivation, and desire, you’re able to achieve something that no one else has done before.

I learned that with correct envision, inspiration, dedication, and desire, impossible simply becomes a fragile barrier between you and your goals. I unearthed the concept of goals and dreams. I realized that everyone has dreams, yet few have goals. I gathered upon the idea that “Goals are dreams with a deadline.” I began to study the great works of Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin, Albert Einstein, and many more. By the end of my sophomore year, I dedicated myself to becoming a very knowledgeable and wealthy person.

As my junior year in high school rolled around, I was euphoric to demonstrate my abilities, and be able to converse with others, capable of harvesting their wisdom and assemble an intelligent and innovative way of thinking. As I began to take advantage of my opportunities, I soon became packed with the pressure of modern day society and the stress of attending a top school.

Throughout my junior year I was harassed with immeasurable amounts of busy work and bullshit. I know – everyone goes through this. But enough of it already, I’m not everyone, and if you’re reading this, you’re not like everyone either. I’ve had a vast amount of bullshit and stress piled upon me. I unhurriedly began growing a deep and robust hatred for my school, teachers, and administrators.

It first began with my teachers. Unacceptable behaviors demonstrated by them, myopic views towards the future of students, and had a lone desire to earn their paychecks at the end of the week. And it wasn’t me just feeling this, it was others too.

I began to realize that even though my classmates where physically and physiologically 17, 18 years old, their psychological ages were astonishing much lower. They operated at a immature 13, 14 year old level.

I’m too old to be here, I repeatedly told myself. A handful of others and myself began to operate the level of much older wiser individuals; thinking and behaving as professional and abstract adults.

It was then when it hit me – school is not about learning. Who is going to remember the useless sides of geometry, the unnecessary bio dissections, redundant history dates, instead it was designed to divulge a new way of mentality progression. School had one sole purpose: to expose a new way of thinking. You go to school to learn how to think.

“School is like building a house. If you want to build a
house, you just don’t start from the ground up. You have to stop, and dig six
feet deep and pour the cement in to create the foundation. That’s what school
is, to create the foundation of education and learning. It is your
responsibility to build the house.”

Yet four years is too long for some people. Myself being a living example, I was caged in this detention for months to come. This is 2009 – life is not about going to school anymore to get good grades, to earn a degree, and work at a steady career. That’s not for you – if you’re reading this, you don’t want to live that life. The average Joe wants that, you don’t. You desire more, you requisite wealth and success for living. Ninety-five percent of all Americans are the same, if you’re reading this; you’re the “other” five percent. We strive upon independence and security.

We strive upon independence and security. We push hard in order to obtain independence. No longer will we take orders from others, or have to manage their bullshit.

I have had enough. We need change now. Take action or take disappointment.